Spiritual Union

Spiritual Union

The last six months have been some of the most beautiful and also some of the most challenging months of my life (including 6 deaths in 6 months). Meeting a man and building a relationship where we have gracefully risen to the heights of a beautiful spiritual union have been absolutely wonderful...and it all feels just right, thanks to God! 

He lives in New York so there is a long distance factor which poses a challenge to my physical understanding of my Self, yet knowing that I am much more than this body has been a huge comfort along the way. The physical distance, measured in miles or kilometers depending on which side of the border I'm on, is no challenge for my spirit. Our minds and our hearts are connected as we communicate regularly, which is essential  to this type of relationship. I do miss being near him sometimes, so that I can take him in with each one of my senses, but I am conscious of the eternal union of our spirits and I am never dissuaded to lose sight of this Truth. Really I am working to cultivate this sense of connection to all life on Earth, it is just easier with the ones that I love. And Love too is for everyone.

But the long distance has also been an important element in allowing me to focus on the things that I'm working on here in Toronto, like my schoolwork and my health. I tend to be someone who gets caught up in my partner's world, devoting a lot of my time and attention to them. Not losing, but recreating a sense of Self with each new partner. I don't think it's particularly strange or bad because I know we all must make accommodations when we are in a close relationship with someone. And I never, ever put my own life on hold or give up any of my own interests. It just seems like my partners open me up to a whole new world of ideas and experiences and...well actually all of this sounds pretty great now that I'm writing it. I am a fluid being and I too bring new expressions of beauty into the lives of people I meet. I guess I just feel like I have the best of both worlds - an amazing partner and a perfect opportunity to take care of my own physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health, while we live at a not-so-easily-accessible distance.

I was actually going to write about some of the challenges that I've had over the last six months - the many stories of death and my challenges with feeling grounded in this path that I've chosen in university - but am now feeling like I don't want to delve into those topics anymore. I'll save it for another day. Anyway, such is the nature of life really. We are like leaves blowing in the wind, pulled by a current which changes our direction at times, and surrenders us to the Earth before being swept up again on a new journey into the sky. Today my written journey will remain focused on how I have risen in love. I will end with these beautiful words from Khalil Gibran:

"And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course. Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself."

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